In de periode van 21 juni t/m 1 juli 2010 hebben wij een 23 jarige Nepalese student te gast gehad die in Duitsland een ingenieursopleiding volgde. Hij heeft al vele jaren last van ADD, of in zijn eigen woorden "brain fog". Hieronder schrijft hij over zijn levensveranderende ervaringen met Brainwave Optimization.
My Experiences with Brainwave Optimization at Alpha Up
Anxiety, stress and brain fog have always been with me. I have NEVER been able to follow my teacher/professors during the lectures in my life. This has happened regardless of the difficulty of the subject matter being taught. When I am talking to somebody about something very mundane, (say the weather, or plans for dining togehter and what we would be cooking), I am missing out about 30-70 percent of information or sometimes even more. If you were to verbally ask me a question that extends for more than 15 seconds, I will not be able to follow your question because my attention span is less than 15 seconds. I used to meditate and time myself 60 seconds in an effort to focus for 60 seconds at least but I never succeeded. The fact that I did get through Engineering degree with a decent grade is one of the wonders of the world, hands down. I have not come across anybody in my circle who is as messed up in the brain as myself. This all has led to immense ADD induced stress and depression in my life in general and I was on the verge of breakdown. Burying my head in the sand could not help anymore. Nothing was working. I was losing control over mself. I could be okay now and in five minutes I could suddenly get so angry I could shatter a television. Yes, I was designed for breakdown. Every ADHD guy walking out there who wants to achieve something in life is a time bomb. He/She will explode one day out of frustration. I had to do something decisive and I am glad I took the initiative to go for Brainstate.
The effects
I plan to complete 15 sessions over a period of 11 days in Amsterdam, thanks to Paulo and his kindness. I am just done with 5 sessions and I feel positively surreal. I am not sure how well you will be able to get into my head and see the world through my eyes. But you can try. Before I started my BST traning I was a different person. The effects of BST have been nothing short of profound. If these effects are permanent, my life has already taken a rebirth. I am different now. I feel different. I think different. I act different. My friend with whom I have been staying in Amsterdam has also noticed the difference in my behaviour pattern and commented on it. Yes, a new life, a better one !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The first session itself was a breakthrough. I walked out of the first session in the new district of Amsterdam adorned by posh office buildings and cool metroways and felt like I have never felt in my life, at least in a long long time. I felt positively surreal. It was like living in an alert and meditative state.(And it is right now , as I write this, I am absolutely relaxed, blissful and focused.) The effects were deep. Depression, anxiety , fear , worry, anger. My mind refused to identify these terms. After the subsequent sessions, the results plateaued and were much more subtle. I completed the fifth session today. it has been pretty intense for the brain, so much so that I expereinced fatigue yesterday. I was able to eliminate this fatigue by taking a lof of fish oil capsules as recommended. I got the feeling that it is very important to eat very good and well balanced food during the sessions and maintain a healthy routine to optimize the results.
I have indeed extended my attention span. I can read better and perform mathematical calculations in the head better than I used to be able to. As already mentioned I am no more depressed, worried, anxious. I am more alert and focussed. My attention span needs more working on and I am sure it can get only better with the upcoming sessions. Going to BST has been like rebooting my system. The effect has been physical, I feel the brain getting better nurtured as though it has opened up channels to feed itself with more blood and nutrition. Otherwise I used to feel empty and fatigued deep inside the brain. I had to keep the brain on a nutritional high to allow it to function normally. This was of course a lot of work and was dragging my life down. My understanding is that BST is a triggering signal that tells brain to form pathways because the brain is able to see its own flaws during the therapy sesison. So I could actually feel better and better in the upcoming months even without the sessions. I'm not a neuroscientist and don't understand the process very much, I must admit. But it seems to work.
Before my sessions I had to work hard to eat the right kind of food to make sure my brains are functional. I was showing tell tale signs of Alzheimers, I swear to God this disease was on the destiny card of my life. Living a normal life was challenging and my life and apirations were under serious jeopardy. Now, my tolerance for conventional food has spiked. I used to get constipated if I at cheese and white bread and it hurt be deep inside my stomach(Ive got issues in there as well). My stomach felt weak and very irritable. But this irritability has been eliminated after the sessions. My tolerance for the kind of eating habbits and foods that devasted me-- has increased. I have been eating heavy oily dinners and not even getting a belch in the morning. Normally this kind food would have wreaked a havov in me and I would not have manged to sleep throughout the night. My digestive system has definitely been boosted. I had this backpain which seems to have vanished after the sessions. My right eye vision was a little blurry, this seems to have cleared up as well. My voice is clearer, louder and precise. My speech and general linguistic abilities have also gotten better. I use to stop in the middle of a sentence to find words to say but now my sentences just knida flow smoother. My computer typing has also gotten more precise and faster I guess. It is as though the brain is revisiting the body on a different level. I was swimming butterly on the weekend after BST sessions and I could feel I was doing better at this stroke. THe body was more in tune with the mind and its instructions. I could swim better technically. I could feel I could also run better and longer because the anxiety was nonexistent, and I was simply enjoying the act of running.
Results after 15 sessions
After 15 sessions, ironically I feel a little more anxious than I did after the first 4 sessions, which were intensive. There has been a slight return in my anxiety level. Maybe this has to do with the way I chose to distribute my sessions, I had a over a 11 day period this his how my sessions ran. 2,2,1,1,1,0,0,2,2,2,2. This is not a best recommended way of doing the sessions I guess. The return of anxiety started on the third day when I chose to do only one session because of brain fatigue I experienced on the previous day. Now I realized I should have rather cotinued with 2 sessions intensive per day and eaten better food and done more exercise to deal with the fatigue instead.
I think this return in anxiety has to do with the envirnoment I a living in instead. I am doing pretty much nothing right now. I realize the machine has done its best and now it is my responsibility to keep myself in balance. As I write this, I am not anxious at all because my mind actively engaged in this act. If I sit around doing nothing that engages my mind, it is possible that my anxiety will return back a little bit.
The BST sessions have been my saviour I must admit. I have gained inner peace and confidence to be able to move on with my life and face new challenges. This sense of inner peace is absolutely divine for someone like myself who's been under constant anxiety for at least the last 5 years. It may or may not be a panacea to all psychological problems, but it certainly is a huge helper. I just finised my 15 sessions yesterday and I am looking forward to seeing how I fare in the next upcoming months, whether or not the results will stick or even get better or worse for that matter. And I feel lucky that such a non invasive technology is among us and I had the intelligence to tap into it. My heartfelt regards go out for those who have been struggling with broken minds. I hope BST gains a much wider market in the coming years, making it more accessible to those who are not so financially privilidged.
P.B., Keulen, July 2nd, 2010